My Plan B Was God’s Plan A
No. That was my entire week in a nutshell. No you can’t, no you shouldn’t, no you won’t, no it’s not time, no just wait. I can recount a no from every s i n g l e day this week. And not forgettable decisions like no you can’t buy that dress, but memorable decisions. The kind that leaves you second guessing if you made the right choice. These are the… I’ll remember this for the rest of my life kind of no’s. At least that’s what it feels like right now. Fortunately God can make things change so fast that you won’t even remember the most painful parts of life. Every circumstance would be small. Almost insignificant.
It’s funny how God works that way. I have a million stories of how he’s changed my circumstances to get me out of my own way and I’m sure this week will turn into another one of them. Saying no to events, no to romantic relationships, no to conversations and engaging with people. Im realizing I was tuned into God at a lower frequency but he’s taking me up higher. It’s a new level of listening and it’s challenging my “will you do this now” muscle. It’s strange living in this space where you’re stepping out on faith and God is literally directing every step.
You step one way but then God’s no presents itself so clearly. You have no choice but to do a 180 and place your foot somewhere else. Sometimes he doesn’t tell you where that else is and you just have to go with somewhere. I’m realizing though that this is the space you find yourself in when God is trying to work things together for your good but all of the pieces are aligning as only he knows. As in, even though I’m down here feeling different emotions he’s calm and collected. Which means further that no matter what life throws at me I can make the conscious decision to be the same way. I can choose to be calm and collected. Just as God intended. If I were supposed to live anxiously and fearfully my body would thrive in that atmosphere. You don’t need to read a scientific study to know that our bodies do not function properly under prolonged periods of stress and anxiety. You can literally feel your body tensing and the adrenaline rushing. It’s just not a space we’re supposed to live in. Period.
So thank you God for directing me and reminding me of this truth that only you guarantee. I’ll be fine. If I don’t experience everything right now with everyone else I’ll be fine. If he’s not the one I’ll be fine. If I don’t get the opportunity I’ll be fine. If no one likes me but myself I’ll be fine. If the only person who believes in me is myself I’ll be fine. I will be fine.
Even though he passed all the no’s my way this week. He also passed me allllll the yes’s I could have asked for! Yes you’re capable of doing anything. Yes I’ll always be with you and for you. Yes you are eternally loved. Yes you can know everything and anything you want to know just ask me. Yes yes yes. God uses any and everything to talk to us and this week he spoke to me through sermons and interviews. One sermon in particular by Steven Furtick really blessed me! 1 Samuel 16:1 when Samuel is mourning over Saul but God has chosen a new king, King David. Pastor Steven put it so plainly for me, “Only God can tell you when you’ve cried over Saul long enough. That’s what the prophet Samuel had to come to terms with, that, I know you believed in Saul, I know you prayed for Saul, I know you wanted more out of Saul, but it’s time to fill your horn with oil and be on your way because your plan B is God’s plan A, I’ve found the man after my own heart and his name is David”. SIS how long will you be crying, mourning, and sad over God’s no when he has hand picked a David for you. A man after God’s own heart, a job after God’s own heart, an opportunity after God’s own heart, a friend after God’s own heart. You can rest easy in the places he’s chosen for you because God not only has you anchored but he has anchored your situation! How many times have we stepped in the devil’s territory claiming dominion and power and God says I’m not there with you. Meaning, there’s too many moving parts in this situation that have not aligned with my will. Everything in this situation is against me which means the circumstances are against US. When do we finally say ok, Im tired of fighting on my own. I trust you so it’s your will over mine Lord. But we’d rather live in drama and discontentment. All I needed to get my feelings back in order was prayer and a few good comforting checks from God. That was it. I’ll need to rely on him every step of the way for the rest of my life so I’m thankful he’s teaching me and reassuring me in what I need to know now.
He also reminded me that he planned for me to be right where I am at this moment years and years ago. Through books I’ve read in the past that showed me how far I’ve come and why it was necessary. Also, through an interview where Will Catlett and Michele Weaver spoke about a sit down they had with Oprah Winfrey. Will mentioned that Oprah gave them advice about being intentional with each and every day. I just wrote about intentionality and the process God put me through last week in How One Year Off Social Media Changed My Life . The interview was posted on youtube one day after I wrote this post. Will evennn mentioned being intentional about Instagram! Which I spoke about specifically. I put these moments in my treasure trove of reasons why God thinks I’m special. Even if they’re insignificant to others it means the world to me to know that God would go through that much just to reassure me that I’m doing what he asks and He is for me. I shouldn’t have been at home to watch this interview, I’m normally at work studying, but I was super hungry lol so I left, I typically don’t watch tv after work but I was on today. I don’t even watch the show they were being interviewed for but since my roommate watches it the interview was in her suggested videos on youtube etc. etc. If this hasn’t been a great week for faithful Friday idk what else to tell you lol. God is so faithful in everything!
To your growth and enlightenment,
The EncourageHer
